Soon I will become an elephant.
My ears will grow and begin to droop.
They will turn grey and floppy.
A string of a tail will sprout
gently behind me. My arms and legs
will thicken and turn to fat stumps.
I will drop to all-fours against the earth
where I belong. I will pad the soft dust.
Little hairs will cover my rough rumpled body.
And, most miraculous, my nose
will lengthen beautifully, glistening
in the warm sun like a splendid python.
I will kiss the tops of trees, delicately
sniff at aromatic leaves, rest it
on a warm stone before I sleep
in quiet bassoon snoring. With it
I will lift great tree trunks
from the backs of wounded tigers.
I will blow soothing breezes
against the wilting mid-day flowers.
I will hold water in my trunk
and bring it to the city streets
and shower black-glistening children
better than a million fire hydrants.
My trunk will curl in laughter
snort in ecstasy as I bring it
fondling to the great grey breasts
of beautiful elephant women. O,
you elephant women standing in knee-high grass,
please wait for me, elephants, elephants, elephants,
because very soon now, I will become an elephant.
Aisha Sabatini Sloan
Episode 22: “Form and Formlessness”
In an essay specially commissioned for the podcast, Aisha Sabatini Sloan describes rambling around Paris with her father, Lester Sloan, a longtime staff photographer for Newsweek, and a glamorous woman who befriends them. In an excerpt from The Art of Fiction no. 246, Rachel Cusk and Sheila Heti discuss how writing her first novel helped Cusk discover her “shape or identity or essence.” Next, Allan Gurganus’s reading of his story “It Had Wings,” about an arthritic woman who finds a fallen angel in her backyard, is interspersed with a version of the story rendered as a one-woman opera by the composer Bruce Saylor. The episode closes with “Dear Someone,” a poem by Deborah Landau.
Rachel Cusk photo courtesy the author.
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